snows of discontent

music of the day: "boston" augustana

it snowed today.

I was up all night studying for a molec bio test (which I bombed, just like drugs test hours before). It started out great: a gig at a nice, comfortable bar with lots of free food and music. I resigned myself to staying up all night to study, in addition to doing 2 ochem postlabs. I stumbled clumsily through what little I did; then I decided to take an hour-long nap.

that's when the snow started.

I woke up at 6 and wanted to get a snack, so in the office I go... only to end up vacuuming it in a fit of near rage because it was so #@!%$ up. (I can only imagine what it's like now.) Then another nap, only because I was so exhausted.

the snow started piling up. i step outside.

Woke up almost late to my exam, with not one Planck-sized iota of studying done. Stumbled through this one as well, only to make stuff up as I go, hoping for bonus point for making Wen the TA laugh because of how bad my test is.

some of it melted into slush.

Ochem lecture next: totally lost as usual; some aromatic crap with lots of hexagons. My mantra: almost there, almost to the horizon....

my favorite suede shoes got wet.

Lab finally came. Postlab never quite done, as per the (hopefully) new usual. Same old people, in their irritating ways. TAs trying to be friendly out of pity for me. Cold, steely, mean. Annoying, narcissistic. I'm-so-much-better-than-you.

snow piles on my shoulders. i trudge on, my feet dragging in the snow.

I got lost for the first time: a heavy precipitate was expected (aspirin, actually), but I got less than a gram, which only shrank to a measly quarter of a gram. I had absolutely no idea what to do. Last one to "finish," as usual. Pity help from the TAs. I trudge out, exhausted in so many ways.

covered in snow, I finally drop to the ground and lie in warmth, peace, and quiet.

I tried not to let any of the day show on my demeanor through all this, for it is but a Lenten sacrifice that must be kept hidden from the world. Personally, I could sleep until Easter, for all everyone cares.

and still the snow falls.

再見.

the hunt

!@#$*&ing capitalism.

here's what I'm doing: I'm on woot, constantly refreshing the main page due to the wootoff. thousands of people everywhere are doing the exact same thing I'm doing now: sending mass amounts of HTTP GETs to the woot servers, bogging them down and clogging the internets. also, I'm inadvertently massacre-ing mass amounts of time just waiting for someone to buy the current cheapo, useless item just to see what's next, doing nothing but pounding the refresh button as I do so.

[refresh]
grrr....
[refresh]
grrr....
[refresh]
buy the thing, dammit!
[refresh]
yay!!!.... aww, do not want....
[refresh]
boo....
[refresh]
repeat ad nauseam.

all the while, I'm skipping out on having dinner, sleeping, homework, and anything productive. yay capitalism...

再見.

schedule

how's this for a messed-up day-to-day college week:

monday.
up all night because of physics homework due at 7am, so take a nap until noon
work at noon until 3, lunch, class 4-7:50pm (nearby dining hall closes 8pm)
dinner, random stuff (procrastination), stay up to do molecular bio homework, napping as necessary in apo office

tuesday.
hopefully got some sleep, wake up (hopefully) for class 10am-1pm
office hour, then work, dinner at 5, then concert choir, a cappella 6:30-11pm
freakin' crash due to all-nighter the previous night

wednesday.
wake up (hopefully) for class at noon, work at 1, class 4-6pm
dinner, procrastination, stay up all night doing physics homework (due at 7am), napping as necessary in apo office

thursday.
same as monday, except no dinner because a cappella 8-10pm, and stay up(hopefully) to do organic chem formal postlab due at 1pm friday, in addition to molec bio work

friday.
up all night doing (mostly) o-chem lab, class 10am-1pm
lab 1-4pm (with me trying not to spill or break anything while working fast as I can)
freakin' crash (theoretically) after dinner, or stay up anyway doing random crap

saturday.
absolutely random crap: sleep in until the afternoon, then do no work until sunday

sunday.
sleep in until 3 or so, dinner, a cappella 5-7pm, apo meeting 7-8pm
hang in apo office for a while, then stay up doing physics homework (due at 7am)

yeah. that's my schedule. I hardly see my dorm (much less my roommate) during the week, because we're either away for class or sleeping (or away sleeping, in some cases). at least I have the whole thing down in my mind as routine; I hope, however, that my body will soon follow, or else I'll doze off during lecture and risk being thrown out (yes, I actually have that kind of professor, even in big lecture halls).

I just hope I can survive the onslaught of work given to me every week, while balancing extracurriculars, the health of my plants, and the all-important sleep. anyway, according to my schedule, I have to finish physics homework.

再見。