it's been a while...

"you can sleep when you're dead." -amy
song stuck in my head: "dick in a box" (I have no idea)
condition: tired but hopeful

it has been a long while since my last post... I found that I had absolutely no time to do any blogging the past few weeks. anyway...

lots of things happening this week and stuff. classes are about to end, fraternity hell week is in full swing, I am stretched far and wide schedule-wise as usual, and sleep is not had. I really wished that I had applied to internships for this summer, but somehow I never got around to it: it was one of those things that you absolutely mean to do at the earliest convenience, but never get around to do so. I had been looking at a few for the New York City departments for functions from gardening to all-around IT guy to hospital lab detainee... er, "technician," but I never even gave them the hour or so they needed to give me any chance. I believe that it's probably too late to anything about them, anyway. besides that, I applied for a summer campus job, but it's probably not going to come through.

I'm fully aware that I'm blogging as "constructive procrastination," when I really should be doing some *overdue* molecular biology homework or the next organic chemistry lab or something along those lines (or sleep). I'm lucky that I didn't have to go through today's onslaught of the OCHEM II EXAM 3.... one of the pledges is ever so constantly stressed out, but I've never seen anyone so stressed out as she was the days immediately before the exam. I'm sure everyone cried themselves to sweet, sweet slumber (especially the premeds) when the exam ended. I've been hearing lots about the course from the unfortunate stalwarts (i.e., commitment escalators) since the day lots of people (including myself) dropped it: an entire chapter presented in one-and-a-half lectures; ever more difficult, intense material; absolute dumbfoundedness, even from the premeds-- the list goes on. I still feel a bit of regret from dropping the course, primarily because I'm leaving Amy alone in the class, and because my o-chem skills have unfortunately atrophied since then, leaving my lab grade in the pits. at least the year is almost over.

one thing I've been thinking about lately is whether I would have turned out fine had I become an engineer. I think I could survive the intro engineering classes: because of physics, I would probably like IEA; I've done some exploring into 3D graphics, so I might like CAD; I've heard a lot about PD1; and lots of non-engineers take Processes (aka metal shop) and embedded control anyway. an engineer friend of mine told me I'd make a good civil engineer, because I like to work with my hands. after my most recent overnight trip to this perfect place in the Catskills, I think I'd be best suited to environmental engineering: a strange choice, since it's being phased out here. regardless, a drastic change of majors at my stage of the game would probably be difficult, but I can dream...

hell week is in full swing, and this time I'm (partially) in control. it's still extremely stressful for everyone, but at least I'm not the one being tested and brought up to a vote. as a pledge, my job was to explain to people that I was a creature of values, a firm believer -nay- the true essence of LFS, and a good fit in the organization, as opposed to a bad hermit who kicks people's dogs and stalks people. now my job is to make sure that the pledges are friends, leaders, and servants (as well as servant-leaders, but that's for them to find on their own), and thus making them good fits for the organization. some brothers will inevitably disagree over some pledges, thus creating time-sucking conflicts that are not very well appreciated by all. I'm sure my older brothers had a tough time with my pledge class: first of all there were TWELVE of us (for our chapter, that's a good amount), and then I'm sure they had their personal gripes with some of us, which is then aggravated by the voting system. the net result: an all-day meeting from HELL, which is kinda appropriate as the end of hell week, don't you think? the net product of it all is a whole lot of headaches for everyone involved, brother and pledge alike, pledges because of draining philosophical talks, and brothers because of debating over and discussing pledges.

sigh

as I have drained my brain reserves for the day, I really should get to sleep.
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